日期 ：8月7日2008年
心情 ：伤心...难过...
Me , a name I call myself... A boy that is losing his mind and his way at the dessert. Trying to escape from this horrible world that make him feel uncomfortable. Running everywhere ,but he can't find a way to get out from this bad dream. Being a lonely boy that is rejected by all the books and comic. Lying down on his bed doing nothing but 'pigging', wasting his time! Time passing very quickly without stopping. And he is also becoming a lazy and dumb boy after so many hours 'pigging' on his bed. He feels that he is useless, stupid, ugly, braveless and so many more! Nobody want him! Nobody like him! Nobody care about him! No girls will ever accept him as their boyfriend also!
The lonely boy is now living alone with his boring blog and his only phone~ Everyday sitting infront of the computer blogging nonsense and chichating! But no matter what he did.. Who will notice he is only trying to make friends? Who will notice he is just trying to be good , to make the others be happy when they are sad... But what he get from them?? Did they save him from the hell?? Did they teach him to become a great and wonderful guy that everyone loves?? Nothing!! Maybe he is just too 'ge bo ji' ... Maybe he is not suppose to help anyone...
The boy know sometimes what he did that just trying to help always cause some trouble, but he seriously just wanted to help. Please belive and trust him you guys. He always tried to make his life complete. Make more friends. Looking a person that wants to share his pain with. Being a perfect guy that everybody loves. No matter what .. No matter hard or easy.. No matter it's difficult or uncomplet-able! Please give him a chance to start a new life... Eventhought that he failed~ But telling you guys that... He really did just want to be a good and happy boy~ Trust Him~
Sometimes, so many people dropping to say [hi, my friend] But do you know behind the [hi] have a knife with it? A knife that just want to get something from you or making you feel uncomfortable! Do you actually know that getting a true friend is harder then getting married? There are so many hands around us until we can't find out which one is the good and the evil hands. Being too careful can't make friends... Being not careful can cause trouble... So which one do you want? careful or not careful? Hard to choose? You should go and look everyone around you.. Find out which one is on the good sides that helps you a lot and which one is on the evil sides that always cause trouble to you until you surrender to them... Getting a friend that trust you is hard.. But getting a friend that only trying to get something from you is easy like SYHT!
The boy never get what he wants... Maybe because he is braveless .. So he never tell anyone about him and what he needs.. That's why he created this blog that can let him write what he feels and what he needs! Being a perfect guy is not easy -- gentlemen, kindness, caring, loyalty, friendly, clever, handsome and rich! So many things that he needs to prepare until he feels that he is too tired to continue his plan and should let go all this big dream and continue his useless life with sadness. Just hoping him try to be happy sometimes.. but... he is still lonely~
Today he feels he is stupid and useless person. He can't answer the question for the BI test~ He is afraid that he can't get A for BI paper... He feel so sad and dissapointed to himself because of his stupid lazy attitute~ Maybe he just don't like to study ... If there is a school that no exam .. it will be so good for everyone... But it won't happen... because if no exam.. nobody will go to school-.- Maybe he just need more time to prepare... he is too tired to face the exam... Who will understand his feelings now...
The lonely boy is now living alone with his boring blog and his only phone~ Everyday sitting infront of the computer blogging nonsense and chichating! But no matter what he did.. Who will notice he is only trying to make friends? Who will notice he is just trying to be good , to make the others be happy when they are sad... But what he get from them?? Did they save him from the hell?? Did they teach him to become a great and wonderful guy that everyone loves?? Nothing!! Maybe he is just too 'ge bo ji' ... Maybe he is not suppose to help anyone...
The boy know sometimes what he did that just trying to help always cause some trouble, but he seriously just wanted to help. Please belive and trust him you guys. He always tried to make his life complete. Make more friends. Looking a person that wants to share his pain with. Being a perfect guy that everybody loves. No matter what .. No matter hard or easy.. No matter it's difficult or uncomplet-able! Please give him a chance to start a new life... Eventhought that he failed~ But telling you guys that... He really did just want to be a good and happy boy~ Trust Him~
He tried!
He tried!
He tried!
He tried!
He tried!
He tried!
He tried!
He tried!
He tried!
Sometimes, so many people dropping to say [hi, my friend] But do you know behind the [hi] have a knife with it? A knife that just want to get something from you or making you feel uncomfortable! Do you actually know that getting a true friend is harder then getting married? There are so many hands around us until we can't find out which one is the good and the evil hands. Being too careful can't make friends... Being not careful can cause trouble... So which one do you want? careful or not careful? Hard to choose? You should go and look everyone around you.. Find out which one is on the good sides that helps you a lot and which one is on the evil sides that always cause trouble to you until you surrender to them... Getting a friend that trust you is hard.. But getting a friend that only trying to get something from you is easy like SYHT!
The boy never get what he wants... Maybe because he is braveless .. So he never tell anyone about him and what he needs.. That's why he created this blog that can let him write what he feels and what he needs! Being a perfect guy is not easy -- gentlemen, kindness, caring, loyalty, friendly, clever, handsome and rich! So many things that he needs to prepare until he feels that he is too tired to continue his plan and should let go all this big dream and continue his useless life with sadness. Just hoping him try to be happy sometimes.. but... he is still lonely~
Today he feels he is stupid and useless person. He can't answer the question for the BI test~ He is afraid that he can't get A for BI paper... He feel so sad and dissapointed to himself because of his stupid lazy attitute~ Maybe he just don't like to study ... If there is a school that no exam .. it will be so good for everyone... But it won't happen... because if no exam.. nobody will go to school-.- Maybe he just need more time to prepare... he is too tired to face the exam... Who will understand his feelings now...
~THE END~
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